What kind of life do I want?

 I want a life …

• without clutter
• with premade foods that won’t mess up my stomach
• where I don’t feel like a failed girlfriend (my anxiety, not my boyfriend)
• where I don’t feel guilty for not working
• where I have motivation to do the dreams I have in my head
• where I follow through with my ideas/gifts for people
• where I’m satisfied with the cleanliness of my house

Journal

 Yesterday:

So last night I tried some pizza from a place that I haven’t had in a while, and man the grease! My stomach hasn’t been happy since the weekend because of Labor Day food, but last night topped it off. Don’t think I’ll be getting pizza from there again.

Today:

This morning I had tea for breakfast. I used to have tea every morning a long time ago but got out of the habit. It doesn’t satisfy my tastebuds anymore, much like how water tastes disgusting to me now. I might start adding fresh lemon juice, which means I need to buy a lemon.

How long is squeezed lemon juice good for? According to KeepTasty.com it is 2-3 days if properly stored and refrigerated. Or 3-4 if frozen.

Since I like using ice cubes to cool it down I can try making them out of lemon juice. A practical way of extending shelf life!

Journal

I can fit my everyday wardrobe on one rack! I wear these clothes all year long; I don’t keep winter-vs-summer wardrobes.

I’m left with:

• 3 halter tops
• 1 pair of jean shorts
• 1 Jean skirt
• 3 pairs of jean’s (1 skinny pair, 1 dressy pair, 1 everyday pair)
• 2 pj pants
• 7 tank tops
• 18 short sleeves
• 6 long sleeves
• 3 sweatshirts
• 2 accessory tops (1 sweatshirt blazer, 1 crochet top)

I have two racks and a basket that I keep my clothes, so now I can remove one rack and actually be able to empty out the basket.

The clothing I removed was sorted between “don’t want” and “unsure.” The unsure pile has been stashed away out of sight - if I go looking for an item I’ll add it back in. Next spring, the items that haven’t been added back in will be donated.

 

 

Journal

 Food

• Breakfast: Can of Dr. Pepper
• Lunch: n/a
• Dinner: Chef Boyardee ravioli

Sleep night before: 12 hrs 5/5 stars

Exercise: none

Med tracker: no

Thoughts:

[1:16 am] I want to get off my computer and do things around the house. But I also want to work on my story stuff. I got on this computer around 10:30am and have yet to even open the darn thing … I looked at vintage advertisement to use for my Tumblr icon and read articles. I never log on and immediately start working on what I originally plan on working on.

[6:10pm] Went through some stuff in the basement with my boyfriend. Stuff that I need to drop off is in my car, and some of the garage sale stuff is in the garage. Went through my movies again and got rid of another stack. We’ve agreed on what we’re doing in the dining room, so once all the garage sale stuff is out we can move our old table into the basement.

Thankful for: My niece and nephew

  so-over-ableism:

Selma Blair stunning us all with her dress and cane shows you can be chronically ill/disabled and still be fabulous