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Anxiety Sucks

 I’m avoiding what I need to do today because I’m scared. I’m scared of messing up, letting people down, letting myself down, and its weighing on me like giant sandbags on my back.

I need to breathe through the tightness in my chest and move more than just may thumbs as I type this.

Journal

My fitness goal is to get where I was when I graduated high school. That was the healthiest / most fit I’ve ever been.

I want to have enough upper body strength to do a chin up, and I want enough flexibility to lay forward while doing a split - I was there once, I know its possible.

Sunday Fitness Log:

• Treadmill: 0.5 mile, 4 incline, 2-3 speed
• Stretches
• Weights

“Shut up legs”

 Today’s going to be a slow day at the gym; I’m so tired from yesterday. But it was such a good day ^.^

To many pieces?

 I was just looking at my post about my wardrobe and added up all the numbers. I have 46 pieces of clothing on that rack … that seems like a lot.

I’ll see if I can pare it down between now and next fall. The halter tops are the only tops I dont wear all year long.

Journal

So my therapist is starting to think I have OCD since I have difficulty starting things because I hyper focus on other things I think need to be done first, or I hyper focus on not being able to do it to my imaginary standard so I shut down.

I remember during one of my first sessions with him I was telling him about my bullet journal and he asked if I had OCD and I said no. That was three years ago.

I don’t think I do … I have ADHD which can make it hard to switch between tasks, but would that explain the hyper focus till I shut down?

Either way, my anxiety meds are also used by people with OCD I guess, so they should help with that aspect as well.

 

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Christine McConnell creates an incredible gingerbread house replica from Tim Burton’s “Miss Peregrine’s Home For Peculiar Children”.